“You’ve let them cloud your mind again with their culture and laws
You think because you’re happy now that your foolish faith in God is the cause?
You selfish pleasure-seeker; you set your intellect aside!
In the name of acceptance you lay yourself bare
To the church and its claws.”
“You’ve got it all wrong,” I answered plainly. “This is not about me.
I’m here to help people grow into people
The way the species needs them to be.
I know my part is minor,
I know I play it well,
And in the name of independence, you think I should deny them?
Brother, I disagree.”
He said, “You’re dodging the real issue:
What does God mean to you?
Your friends say he’s a magic sky-man,
Please don’t tell me you think so too?
You could find ways to do good without perpetuating lies.
If you’re going to tell people you’re a believer,
Then it has to be true.”
“And what if I said I’m not a believer?
That is surely a lie.
Even you must concede we are throttled by mystery.
Some secrets won’t submit to the eye.
This world emerged from darkness;
Now beauty dances in the light.
In rough terms I could tell you how,
But without God, I cannot explain why.”
“So then, you side with faith and comfort?
How convenient it seems!
Once you swore to me you thirsted for virtue.
What happened to those aspirant themes?
You choose the path of solace,
Turn from the hard road you once sought,
Like the masses, forswear what you cannot accomplish!
Now I grieve for your dreams.”
“I feel no shame for growing up,
Nor for seeking my place.
You can claim what you want about motives -
That it’s a coward or a sucker who prays.
I feel God’s purpose in me
I can’t be sure it’s Him
But the funny thing is, even if I decide not to notice,
I will walk in God’s grace.”
“You’ve let them cloud your mind again…”