"I don’t look at the future. It’s too scary and sad. I just take it day by day and ask myself how I can love her, how I can take care of her, how I can help her to have a good day or a good weekend. There’s anger that this is happening to such a wonderful person and grief that we’re losing her. I feel so helpless, but I just push through. I don’t let myself get emotional, because if I did Mom would see the fear in me and it would scare her. She doesn’t need to feel that. I need to be her strength right now.
"I keep holding out hope for a cure, something that will reverse all this. One of the things the Alzheimer's Association does is raise money for research, but even with new discoveries, it’s years before new medicines or treatments are approved and available. For now, I’m just trying to be a voice for Mom because she no longer has one. I want my generation to know about Alzheimer’s. I want them to know that it can happen to young people, not just to those who are elderly.
"When she was diagnosed, the doctors said she might have 8 to 10 years left. I know she probably won’t be around for my children when they are born, but I try not to think about that too much. I’m just grateful she was able to come to my wedding in May. My husband is wonderful with her; I couldn’t do this without him. Mom’s going down more and more, so I just try to make the seconds count and cherish the present moments I have with her. It’s not easy to see your best friend, your mom, decline before your eyes. I know she wishes she could tell me what she wants to say. She used to jot down little notes to people when she sent them birthday cards, but she can’t do that anymore. She can barely write I love you."
Formed in 1980, the Alzheimer's Association advances research to end Alzheimer's and dementia while enhancing care for those living with the disease.
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October 10, 2015 Alzheimer's Association Fundraiser: Walk to End Alz